2014 could hardly be thought of in the same breath, but in some ways I approached this weekend with one of the above...no expectations.
Normally I end up organising a group gathering where several mates get invited over and at least three of us enjoy being lavished with gifts as our birthdays fall within a week of each other.
This year was different as I had started the year feeling very low and had distanced myself from our close friends, but a few weeks I had started feeling a lot better as I'd started to fill an empty part of my life with contributing to charity and again playing a more active part of the community overall.
Good friends and playmates S10Boi and his boyfriend Rubberwulf were invited over and as normal we had several chats online where we'd been cybertopping each other and generally getting each other horny chatting about things we'd do in a real situation but nothing promised.
The weekend came and still without expectations except to just enjoy playing with each other and the boys arrived and within a couple of hours we were all in skintight rubber all over and enjoying our time.
I was somehow enviably in a naturally submissive headspace and it was brifly mentioned that I was to be tied up and played with first but somehow Avon (s10boi) ended up on the bed inside his sleepsack, but I was in such a good headspace that I didn't feel and jealousy at all, only to make him enjoy his time encased in a couple of layers of rubber.
I think what lay beneath might have had something to do with my headspace.
After a lot of concentration I managed to compose myself and stuffed my balls and semi into the device and asked Rubberwulf to 'do the honours' and so he snapped the padlock on.
Anyway, back to the scene. I was put to use in various hoods where the only hole exposed was utilised and again made me feel more like a sextoy or machine for sexual pleasure. Eventually after Avon treated to electro in his tailhole, blowjobs and his Venus2000 milking machine, the rubber encase sucking machine went to work again.
I ended up taking his load in my mouth whilst Rubberwulf pushed his digits into my other hole but in my head it was a spitroast, even if the penis in my mouth belonged to another gimp.
After a brief interlude and being made to (though again I was happy to oblige) suck Wulfie's cock and I was surprised to feel him shooting into my mouth too! I guess my talents at sucking cock have some fans! lol
This was followed by another memorable event which I think was only possible because of my headspace as I was lead into the shower and pissed on by Alphawulf, even opening my mouth to swallow his piss. I didn't even think twice about it, I beginning to suspect I have been hypnotised into wanting it.
Shortly after this the fun didn't stop as I was put into Avon's hooded s10 gasmask with blackout lenses, rubber posture collar, padded locking mitts and then spread-eagled to our bed.
Working out is also the reason I feel comfortable showing these pics, it's really amazing how much confidence this has given me.
Eventually after the electro, venus and wanking reached a frenzy I was forced to shoot my load at the hands of Avon and Wulf who promptly continued to stimulate my uber sensitive red swollen helmet.
My moans of pleasure continued for what I remember as being several minutes as I recovered. Post orgasm I still felt amazingly gimpy, still blind and restrained, the Alpha's gradually released me and we enjoyed a good hug and kiss once the hood was removed.
This was an amazing weekend which aside from the above was relaxing, motivating and even the weather seemed to be on our side, so general good feelings all round and mostly it was down to not having expectations.
Now to get my head around not expecting to not have expectations.....
