2014 Summary (Part 1 Jan-Jun)

So this year, how to summarise this in a way that can be worthwhile and a little bit entertaining.

This year has gone so quickly, quicker than any previous year, is that because I'm getting older (aren't we all?) and friends and family tell me the years go by quicker the older you get?  Is it because I've filled this year with more activities and thus noticed the passage of time less?  Is it because I've had a lot of ups and downs, more downs than I care to mention in passing, so when being retrospective the passage of time can (in some circumstances) pass quicker.

In truth I think this year has been a combination of all of the above, but I don't regret any of it.  I don't want to hear myself complain about not being in a better position, because it's been the best year yet and 2015 holds much hope and I plan to make every single day count.

January - First day of our year started good after spending the new year celebrations in gear with good friends, we returned home to find our main front window leaking, weather was extremely wet and windy.

This month included a little rubberyness too, though sadly spent alone I was horny enough to cum twice that night.  I took this image from the video, I should really edit and upload it to xtube, perhaps I will if I get any kind of feedback on this blog post.  Ahh bribery, let's see if that works...




February
Not a lot of perving in real life, just sitting back to enjoy the Winter Olympics, yes that German 2 man bobsleigh team was absolutely to die for!

March was as bit better as far as perving was concerned as we took loads of photos to use for GearBlastUK later in the year which was fun to do with the help of some mates.  I also got the chance to be extremely submissive and rubbered up for an extended period on my birthday.

April was filled with plans expending for GBUK14, visiting the venue for the first time, take photos and building relationships.  I also got more rubber time with S10boi, where I got to practice my ropework on him.  I layered up and helped myself.








May saw the arrival of my purchases from LatexCatfish, A nice thick red rubber mattress cover and a heads out vacrack, both excellent purchases I must say and I'm still very please with the quality.  The Pervybikers also had their first pervy rideout of the year (nb Colin rides all year round and it's James that holds back for the fairer weather).
We also had a visit from increasingly close friends Armalyte and Rub Berdevilk (Devilkink) but for some reason I cannot find many photos of that experience, but needless to say it was fun and has been repeated since too.

June was the most exciting month of 2014 so far as we seemed to fit a lot more in.  Starting with a Holiday to the Lake District in the north west UK, we asked Rubbot to come along with us, and his presense not only encouraged us to fit more in, but also for us to behave like civilised people.  We went Mountain biking in Scotland and Whinlatter Forest and I only fell off twice.  Sadly I didn't get any photos or footage of that!  Loads of photos were taken but this one sums up my main memories.

After the holiday I had a brief opportunity to try my new VacRack out and it appears I enjoyed it.  There are photos of this but I think there will be better photos to come in my part 2 summary of 2014.  There are plenty of other pics to share anyway...

Such as #Fullgearfriday which seems just like it was yesterday.  I was easily cohearsed into getting into full rubber and appearing on cam (nb this is not something I do on request for just anyone, so please don't ask if you don't know me very very well).

We also got a trip to Matlock Bath on the bikes toward the end of the month which we enjoyed as it allowed us to just sit back and enjoy the view,  Of course I could post pics of the various bikers, but I thought one of me being nonchalant was more appropriate! :P


There we have the first half of our year.  Of course there's much much more to it than that, but do you really want to see the less pervy bits like cooking and baking, family visits, DIY, gardening, and doing a hell of a lot of tidying up for some reason.... anyway part 2 will be along shortly.

Contemplation and headspace

Hey All,

It's been a while since I blogged anything.

Historically I've just rambled on and not provided any photos, I'll try to do better this time!

Last blog post was about how YOU have a valued opinion and a part to play in this community.  Our community is far reaching and varied and spills over into other communities, and what I have to say tonight kinda follows on from this theme.

For those who have been paying attention, my husband, myself and a few good souls have brought an event back to life and after plenty of long evenings of preparation, chasing for answers and eventually a lot of running around and a few good stories the weekend came and went ....and so did a few guys at GearBlast:UK :P

Alongside all of this I was honoured to be hosting a couple of friends who had travelled from Australia and the United States staying with us for 15 and 11 days respectively but whilst they were here, I felt so very comfortable and accepted.

This, as it turns out was an over-riding theme amongst many who attended GearBlast:UK, many felt they discovered something new about themselves and that this fetish venue wasn't as intimidating, nor the guys who turned up to be judgemental at all.  This is exactly the kind of thing we were hoping for, but never expected.

One thing I do really appreciate is how many genuinely decent guys we met for the first time and hoping it won't be the last, my regrets total three for GBUK.  One that I didn't bring it back sooner, second that I didn't manage to make it 100% for everyone (always room for improvement) and third, that I didn't have enough time to spend with everyone.

I didn't get a lot of a chance to enjoy it myself but even so here I am on the far right (pup in Hockey gear) with a few other pups.



I'm not here to talk about that weekend though ...surprisingly..oh okay a little bit.  This post is more about the events and feelings which began the weekend which followed.  It became one of the best I've had in a long time.

In addition to my husband, GadgetAU and RocketPup, we also had Rubbot, S10Boi and Rubberwulf over for the weekend for some rubbery fun whilst Rocket was still in the country and what a weekend it was.  Sorry we couldn't accommodate anyone else, I'm seriously not trying to rub it in.

I'm not sure if what happened to me was planned or whether it was the specific influences that were present at the time, but I found myself letting go...

Letting go of my human inhibitions,

As per the previous weekend I was in full rubber a few times, in fact I enjoyed Rubber, Leather, rubber under leathers and rubber again, and leather again, but the one time I was in rubber and allowed to wear RocketPup's Wet-Hot Puppy Hood is where I managed to achieve (for me at least) the elusive pupspace.

Despite my reputation, photos, stories and many conversations with various people I have only managed to get into the pup mindset once or twice.  I didn't know it happened, or how it happened but it has renewed my love of pup play and I want to do it again.

I have come to some realisation in the last few days of what I really want, and what I can really provide personally as I think being pretty established within this community, onlookers who dont' ask the questions can easily make assumptions.

I'm not a Top, an Alpha, Sir, Master or even an expert on the fetishes that I participate in, I'm certainly not an expert and am just learning my craft,  learning about myself and what I enjoy.

My preferred role is submissive, Pup, Gimp, Drone, Toy, Object, Biker...

I can and often do top guys, and I enjoy doing it for those who have imagination and a devious mind, so I guess you could call me a switch, but that is an essential for me - that I feel my effort, enthusiasm and imagination can be reciprocated.

This has always been the case though, it's just that my recent revelation has been that I can indulge in this side of me fully without wanting to be in control or having input into what happens as well, and for that I am eternally grateful.

The key to all this?  Allowing my friends to look after me, not having any expectations and trusting fully that they know my limits and how to get the best from their plaything.  I hope to enjoy this side of me more and more but something I do need help with is my pup side.

Being so prominently 'pup' online I get put on a pedestal and others try to emulate me.  I know this, not because I'm big headed, but because I've been told as much by many.  Though I have fun in gear (and that gear usually involves a pup hood) the headspace isn't there, I can pretend to be cute or sexy, playful, naughty etc, but more often than not, it's playing up for the lens....camera whore that I am.


It's not to say the scenes you see in photos are staged, but the 'look' is acted to a degree, it's still me and it'd be tough to tell the difference considering I'm always wearing some kind of mask or hood, but for me it's not genuine...I wish it were....very much so.

The weekend following GearBlastUK, pupspace was real in my head, I have no way to explain it other than it felt right, I didn't think about the gear, or my human body, or anything that was said to me, I just wanted to sniff things, licking people and happily wagging my tail, not thinking about what happens next.

This has got me thinking, and after talking with my husband I've decided to start looking for a trainer.  Not an owner, because my heart belong to my husband and I will never love anyone else, though I have love for my closest friends both in real life and online.

Previously I thought I could do things for myself, but I think right now I really need a handler or trainer to help me get the best from my pup side, maybe I can help other pups grow in time but first I need to keep developing this part of my personality.

Some of this I can pick up from other pups who visit, but I know that I need some discipline to be able to develop, and dominance to ensure I follow it and enjoy it.  I guess there may be some guys who might suggest they would fit the part. Consider first that I am still human and the first part of accepting training is respect.  If you don't keep my respect as a human it's unlikely you'll meet the pup.

I hope that i find the right trainer for me to help me explore and learn more about my body and mind in pup mode.  I think it's exciting and theraputic to indulge in it.

Right I think I've rambled off enough of my thoughts for one night.

I should add that if you want to see photos from GearBlastUK 2014 follow the link to Flickr on the first image.  If you want to buy merchandise please go to gearblastuk.myshopio.com and if you fancy coming next year bookmark this link www.gearblast.co.uk or send me an email (link on the homepage) asking to be added to the mailing list!

Hope you enjoyed reading this insight into my little big headed indulgent little world, hope I haven't steered anyone wrong in the past or offended anyone in my present, I certainly hope to expand my future! *wags n lixx*

~Boots

Happy Gimpday

March 15th for me is a double edged sword, 37 years ago today I arrived into the world as a blank canvas, no expectations and innocent.

2014 could hardly be thought of in the same breath, but in some ways I approached this weekend with one of the above...no expectations.

Normally I end up organising a group gathering where several mates get invited over and at least three of us enjoy being lavished with gifts as our birthdays fall within a week of each other.

This year was different as I had started the year feeling very low and had distanced myself from our close friends, but a few weeks I had started feeling a lot better as I'd started to fill an empty part of my life with contributing to charity and again playing a more active part of the community overall.

Good friends and playmates S10Boi and his boyfriend Rubberwulf were invited over and as normal we had several chats online where we'd been cybertopping each other and generally getting each other horny chatting about things we'd do in a real situation but nothing promised.

The weekend came and still without expectations except to just enjoy playing with each other and the boys arrived and within a couple of hours we were all in skintight rubber all over and enjoying our time.

I was somehow enviably in a naturally submissive headspace and it was brifly mentioned that I was to be tied up and played with first but somehow Avon (s10boi) ended up on the bed inside his sleepsack, but I was in such a good headspace that I didn't feel and jealousy at all, only to make him enjoy his time encased in a couple of layers of rubber.

Once sealed up I just stood patiently awaiting instructions.

Just wish I'd polished my suit before getting into the swing of things!

I think what lay beneath might have had something to do with my headspace. 

After talks about chastity and how they don't tend to fit me, I was handed Avon's black silicone Birdlocked device and an open padlock.  Unfortunately the sight of this instantly made me hard.

After a lot of concentration I managed to compose myself and stuffed my balls and semi into the device and asked Rubberwulf to 'do the honours' and so he snapped the padlock on.

Anyway, back to the scene.  I was put to use in various hoods where the only hole exposed was utilised and again made me feel more like a sextoy or machine for sexual pleasure.  Eventually after Avon treated to electro in his tailhole, blowjobs and his Venus2000 milking machine, the rubber encase sucking machine went to work again.

I ended up taking his load in my mouth whilst Rubberwulf pushed his digits into my other hole but in my head it was a spitroast, even if the penis in my mouth belonged to another gimp.

After a brief interlude and being made to (though again I was happy to oblige) suck Wulfie's cock and I was surprised to feel him shooting into my mouth too!  I guess my talents at sucking cock have some fans! lol

This was followed by another memorable event which I think was only possible because of my headspace as I was lead into the shower and pissed on by Alphawulf, even opening my mouth to swallow his piss.  I didn't even think twice about it, I beginning to suspect I have been hypnotised into wanting it.

Shortly after this the fun didn't stop as I was put into Avon's hooded s10 gasmask with blackout lenses, rubber posture collar, padded locking mitts and then spread-eagled to our bed.

Wulf's signature yellow ear defenders put me at another disadvantage and helped me be less distracted by what was going on outside of my rubber encasement.

Once a gasmask tube was adding to my inlet the Alphas began to tease me snapping off my codpiece and revealing my locked up cock.

I love how the mitts made me feel so vulnerable, and they felt great too, so rubbery and padded and impossible to remove on my own, though the padlock also helped to cement my gimpy headspace!

Once I was teased for what felt like hours I felt the device holding my bits captive being tugged on and my dick sprung free.

In my vulnerable position I knew what was coming next as I felt the asszip on my suit being opened.  A lubed up gloved finger entered my hold closely followed by an electrode connected to the Avon's ET-312.

The torment didn't abate as the electro was ramped up gradually causing thumping spasms inside me which felt amazing, meanwhile my cock was being stimulated driving my gimpy mind crazy with lust.  I was in heaven and feeling a lot more comfortable than any other time I had been tied up.  Though this wasn't a particularly challenging position I have started working out daily and my circulation seems to be the first noticeable improvement.

Working out is also the reason I feel comfortable showing these pics, it's really amazing how much confidence this has given me.

Eventually after the electro, venus and wanking reached a frenzy I was forced to shoot my load at the hands of Avon and Wulf who promptly continued to stimulate my uber sensitive red swollen helmet.

My moans of pleasure continued for what I remember as being several minutes as I recovered.  Post orgasm I still felt amazingly gimpy, still blind and restrained, the Alpha's gradually released me and we enjoyed a good hug and kiss once the hood was removed.

This was an amazing weekend which aside from the above was relaxing, motivating and even the weather seemed to be on our side, so general good feelings all round and mostly it was down to not having expectations.

Now to get my head around not expecting to not have expectations.....